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Friday, August 27, 2010

Bridges Burned, Pages Turned, Lessons Learned :)

 I'm scared. As much as I want to find someone, that's how much I don't. I am well aware of the work it is to be in a relationship. I know everyone wants to have someone that has their kisses, etc. all together- but it seems like no one wants to date one.......

You know the feeling of wearing the same shoes over and over again.... eventually you get sick of wearing them and throw them out because they are only heels and you have to be careful so they don't break? And when they seem like they are going to break you shelf them forever or throw em out because you are afraid of wearing them out too much .... you are just sick of the same shoes all the time?

Imagine if that shoe was a boy or girl friend. Further imagine that boy or girl to be you. Makes you feel pretty bad, right?   I mean, someone getting tired of you and frustrated just because they cant nap with you, kiss you, or whatever else. I don't want someone else to get tired of me. I have my values for a reason.

I don't want my boyfriend having to go to another state or some gosh awful party to be with flirty girls so he can have his bit of "fun"   and then come back to me on Monday to go out to the movies just so he can cuddle with me..........................I go to the movies to watch the movie. not to sit there with your arm constricting the life from me! MERCY!

I don't want my boyfriend getting annoyed and mad because my friends are in the room when he wants to cuddle and be all over without being all over.......

I don't want my boyfriend lying to me about things because he knows what he is doing is wrong...

I don't want my boyfriend sticking up for his mother when he should be sticking up for me.....

I don't wany my boyfriend to be the one to dictate when we can talk......IF we talk that night

I don't want my boyfriend just telling me he loves me so ill shut up .....

I don't want my boyfriend to pretend like i don't exist to his friends, making me introduce myself....

I don't want my boyfriend to tell me he's changed, when he doesn't even come home for Valentine's - just one month after round 2 started...

I don't want my boyfriend to think with anything other than his heart...

I don't want my boyfriend to pretend to want my best interests when he really is only in it for himself, and his self esteem.......

I don't want a boyfriend whose life is unplanned to the point he doesn't know if he will be working the next morning....

I don't want my boyfriend to know the rules but gets so close me might as well kiss me.....

I don't want my boyfriend to act respectful when he isn't.....

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I've learned lessons about myself too you know......

I mean, ill never go through someone's mom to go to the movies with their son.

When someone's mom calls me begging for me to date her son again because he's changed...i'll politely tell her to take the phone and shove it up her ---, where all of her lies usually stem from. and  where she usually speaks from anyways...

When my boyfriend tells me my perception is warped...ill tell him that with his squinty eyes our perceptions must match perfectly then.

When my boyfriend makes me feel bad about my rules and not being able to kiss me because all his friends tease him... ill tell him he can go find some hooker to kiss if he wants to.... but i wont be taking him back...

When my boyfriend tells me i could lose a few pounds... after i knock his block off ill inform him that he can get leg extensions at any participating prosthetic store...

When my boyfriend's mom tells me she's so glad we dont kiss because he would be sick too.... ill tell her she can rest peacefully, as my lips haven't touched his, and they also haven't touched a beer can underage :)

When my boyfriend tries to manipulate me.....ill tell him that since he's lied to me, it would make sense he'd lie about me, and
"dont tell me your sorry cuz your not...
Baby you know your only sorry you got caught...
Cuz you've put on quite a show, 
Really had me going... but now it's time to go
Curtains' finally closin' .... that was quite a show..
Very entertaining.... but it's over now...... go on and Take a Bow"