Mmmmmm no.

"Do you have anything interesting to say today?" said the mouth to the Brain. "mmmmmmmmm no." said the Brain to the Mouth. hehe thats me right there. life is pretty boring right now. not much to say, but always a ton to do! my novel is on hold. that's interesting. we do alot of canning here. cool , huh? that's my life...... riiiight. :)

Better to have a Stand then sell lemonade from the porch

when you have lemonade, you put up a stand to say "this is my stand, this is what i charge" but if you don't have a stand, then you have to sell it from the porch, which means it's not really your stand, it's part of your family's too. eventually, life challenges you to form your own ideas and opinions. these ideas and opinions may be what your family believes, like most of mine. however, the key to having the "stand" in life is knowing where your opinions and ideas derive from, and the other side. If you ever need to defend your position, you need to know where the other person is coming from; because it will make the situation easier when you know the offense. but, if you choose not to look deeper into the major situations going on- and the sides it can go- then you really dont have a stand in life. you are on your mother's and father's porch, trying to sell your lemonade. just food for thought :)

Just in case you were wondering...

http://www.csmonitor.com/CSM-Photo-Galleries/In-Pictures/The-20-weirdest-fish-in-the-ocean It is simply incredible to imagine all the marvelous creatures we have categorized throughout our many years of living on earth! Of course, not everyone could know all the types of species of anything in any one kingdom! so i have the above link to show you some of the most fascinating, creepy, and unheard of fish living in the depths of the oceans around the world! enjoy, fellow readers! n

Wake up in the mornin' feelin' like - im irritated...

good morning. and yes, unfortunately enough, i have woken to a bad mood setting on..... let one person say the wrong thing to me and that will ruin my day for sure.... i think it's because i slept in so late today.... i rarely go past 8 15 ... but today i didn't wake up til 9 30.............that should do it. i have a stats test tomorrow... this should be fun and easy since he gave us all the equations we need! :D all i need to do is check for what table matches to which equation set... sooooo that s all. today thus far has been most boring. P.S. did you see someone and get annoyed just by looking at them? if yes. say a prayer for them today- and for yourself. if no. then you are lying and need to reexamine yourself! haha :) <3 til later................................

I have come to a fork in the road-

I have, in fact, come to a fork in the road. It comes between these two and very distinct choices: Complain and Stress about every thing encompassing school and grades and grad school- or straightening up and starting to pray. I chose the right side- i have straightened up and started praying for my own future. Today. Right now. I am finally, really starting to take prayer seriously in regards to giving my future to God. From now on, I will honestly do my best to take everything to prayer. I certainly cannot make all these decisions by myself- I need God. This little "lull" of just filling up pew space is over. Rosaries-and Plenary Indulgences, <3

" I know what it is you saw..." ~ Galadriel, LOTR

So today while i was looking at everyone's Engagement statuses on facebook... i thought of what my life would be in that position: I'd be going to a private wedding store for my dress, shoes, and bag. I will have my Grammie embroider the dress and bead it. Just like she made my communion dress. :) My fiance` and i will be looking at wedding invitations- i would love to have something that is sparkly paper with a little ribbon on it..... I want cloth to cover my tables, and chair covers for everyone.... I also want to get personalized M &M candies in all colors and have a station with little bags for people to get their fave colors! with a little bottle of champagne at everyone's (21 and up) seat! For my song to dance to with my new husband it would be between : Beauty and the Beast <3 Hero- Mariah Carey Hero- Enrique Iglesias I Melt- Rascal Flatts! For the Father-Daughter Dance: BUTTERFLY KISSES! And other Must haves areeee: Low- Flo Rida! Tik Tok- Ke$ha Can you feel the love tonight- Elton John I Love Rock and Roll or Cherry Bomb- Joan Jett and the Runaways Livin on a Prayer- MOST DEF! EveryBody Dance Now- Thriller!! If I ain't got you- Alisha Keys! Evacuate the Dance Floor- Cascadaaa Best Dam* Thing-Avril Don't Stop the Music- Rihanna/Pon-da-Replay Telephone, Pokerface, Just Dance- Lady Gaga Party in the USA- Miley Cirus Oh It's Magic- Selena Gomez Down-Jay Sean You belong with Me- Taylor Swift All the Man that I need- Whitney Houston-- TO BE CONTINUED! Champagne and Curlers, <3

Faith Like a Mustard Seed-

My faith is about the size of a mustard seed right now. Looking at graduate schools, trying to decide exactly what i want to do in life.... "When I left Queen's my future seemed to stretch out before me like a straight road. I thought I could see along it for many a milestone. Now there is a bend in it. I don't know what lies around the bend, but I'm going to believe that the best does. It has a fascination of its own, that bend, Marilla." That is about how i feel right now..... soo many options are open to me, yet i feel weighted down by the numerous stops i have to make to get to where i want to be- keeping in mind this is time sensitive. Pepper with my Salt, <3

I'm just as decisive as Charlie Brown.

Hello- I suppose it should be goodnight, actually. I'm not sure why i choose to write out this as if im talking to someone... i blocked these so i could use it as a personal diary; it is so much nicer than rambling to people... it also helps get thoughts straightened out before you talk lol In the course of this week, I have been politely told that: 1) I am intimidating to guys because I am outgoing. 2) That I have too high of standards. 3) That I could have a boyfriend if I really wanted to. Well, i am here to let you all know three things which I am not going to tell you politely: 1) If you are intimidated by me, there's the door. 2) If my standards are too high, yours must be too low- or you are desperate. 3) You are completely right. I could have a boyfriend if I wanted to. But I am not the flirt and flight- I am looking for the complete package. I will make a short disclaimer about myself: "Hi! and thank you for wanting to date me. I appreciate your flirtatious attitude and your pretending to care anything about me, but i need to warn you of somethings. I do not offer sex for free or payment-you need to marry me for that. My lips are untouched- you need to marry me for that too. No you are not allowed to take naps with me- i will send my dog after you if you try. No, I have not had thousands of boyfriends- but being mine is a rigorous process and contest. Many will enter, Few will attempt, one will win. Thanks for playing the Dating game and good luck!" I am well aware that the idea of being chaste is a hard enough pill to swallow for most guys... i can admit it is difficult for me sometimes too. HOWEVER .........quite frankly, i dont care :) Not many guys have gotten to the point of asking me out, because once they find out alittle more about me and what i dont do- they run. i laugh :) It definitely makes the weeding out process easier.... i mean, that eliminates most of the male population when you start talking about no naps- but no kissing on the lips? well, that is how i know the man needs an award just for trying :) hahaha ok im done . enough of me for now! heart shaped candies <3

The Humor of a Dating Website always gets me!

Yes, i have received NUMEROUS emails for "Black Singles. com - Meet hot singles in your area today!" and "Match1- Find the Love of your Life" and "All Singles- Join today and meet others like your self " -----------omg it gets soo old! I really think going to a different school would have helped. Sure, i have learned tolerance from being here.... but there is still something that is missing.... You have the extremes- Lovers and Haters- it's almost a highschool setting.... Black People usually sit and eat together- the almost-monks-but-not-yet guys eat together- the runners eat together- the little cliques of people only eat with "their" people- etc .etc. But i think i should have transferred when I had the chance. I really do. Or maybe instead of doing something dumb with my summers, i should have gone to Catholic Family Land or something... where people actually meet other people of the same faith, or maybe the problem is me.... i really couldn't say for sure. Sitting and looking back- i guess you could say that through highschool i never really had any friends.... i had acquaintances....but that is different and when girls are clique-y, then i guess that's what you get! lol! what can i say? i used to think it was because i wasn't very pretty and that's why i wasn't ever one of the popular ones... now, looking at where they are.... regardless of myself.... im so SO glad im not them! i was kind of shy, kind of outgoing.... but i've learned to be more outgoing- laughing off my shyness or finding commonalities to chat about... i always knew what i wanted, i go to school- those things stay the same because that is what i know i should want, but in the end i know. i know what i should want is, in fact, what i do want. and i think that does it for now. happy hopes and vera wang- <3

and.. these are the foods to watch out for...

http://refreshingnews9.blogspot.com/2010/04/harmful-foods-in-america.html This is a very interesting site and I encourage you to read it. It is definitely insightful.

Oh 4-H... How I HATE thee!

I hate my 4-H club. The club i was particularly involved in was very aristocratic....a few family members were leaders. And, conveniently enough, their daughter was a critical, fair weather friend/fellow rider. I swear she was only your friend if you were doing worse than her in something. lol! But this time, although i am above the age of 4-H, i am not too old to state my opinion. This so happened to be in my Agricultural Club. One leader in particular had obviously little to no sympathy when it came to us not having our project books turned in on time. When your baby brother is in the hospital during fair week for seizures, and you Grandfather is dying of cancer, and your child is moving into college...soooo sorry. But 4-H was the last thing on my family's mind. Soo they wanted my siblings to write a paragraph about my brother's illness. Well, since they each come from the same household, wouldn't the story be the same? Duh. Besides, what do they want it to say? " To Whom this is None of Your Business, My Baby Brother, at 6 months old, was very sick with seizures, and taken on emergency to Children's. He would stop making contact, and cry. He also had to be on special meds from Canada in hopes that this would make him better. It was a very stressful time for my family, with my Grandfather being on his deathbed with cancer in his brain for the last 3 months. Sorry we didn't make it to the fair, or turn in the same books we have had to fill in the blanks to for 6 years now... but we had some other TRIVIAL events going on in our family that SEEMED more important than your stuffy, clique-y , and utterly stupid club. Most Respectfully, Me." yeahhh they wouldn't want to see me back. I have went from a fairly "whatever" person- to one who speaks up when something isn't right. And this, dear readers, wasn't right in my eyes. until later, me

So I've Been Doing This Thing...

So, I've been entering contests..... a little here and there.... to see what neat things i can win. dumb? maybe. waste of my time? quite possibly. odds of me actually winning? 1 in 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000. but you will be crying when i get my new iPod Touch! or win 52 bags of fresh salad! ha!

Tomato Soup for the Pro-Acid Stomach

i had tomato soup today. just me. my sister and mum have very anti acidic stomachs. i also had the pleasure of entering in a contest for family traditions. that would be awesome to win. of course, many people also enter, and of course only one wins. i really should be studying for my heritage class. i just got back- ate some tacos, cleaned up, said goodbye, and am sitting here with my book, notes, study guide, and browser opened. sadly enough the browser hasn't developed a tab for "microsoft office" yet.... otherwise i could start replying to the magnitude of emails and things that pile up over the weekend. i was considering submitting a poem into "generation" the little school publication that is more of a contest... that takes place each spring. i would love to have a little something in there... even though the majority of entries that are chosen are good writers. of course, everyonce in a while- the average person's paper is picked to be printed into hundreds of copies and distributed to the student body. interesting? yes. i always wanted to be a writer. and here i am with my little piece of the web. it's not nearly as reputable as an actual published work; but someday i will have the time to write something interesting- thought provoking-invigorating and refreshing- for humanity to read. unfortunately, my time has not yet come. maybe the day will be tomorrow. maybe not until after i am dead and my biography can be written. if my life turns out to be something grand, that is. lol! enough of my rambling.... i need to study... and i'm sure some of you also must too. Crumpled Notes and Pencil Smudges <3

The more boys I meet, the more I love my dog!

courtesy of Carrie Underwood <3
. i mean..... are you in a relationship that you are only in for the sake of "having someone" ? have your friends told you to ditch him, do you parents hate him, are you loving his looks/money/grades more than him? if you are, it's time to think wouldn't I rather be single than deal with him? the answer should be yes. is he rude to you? does he say things like "well you just aren't that smart enough" or "you could lose a few pounds"? does he make fun of your beliefs, or over step boundaries you have set for your relationship? does he take you away from your friends, give you the cold shoulder when you don't do what he wants to do? (controlling) if you can answer this to any of those, it's time to take a look into your relationship. are you afraid to bring him home, be with him in front of your friends, etc? do you spend more time in his room than talking about where your relationship is going? communicate! understand the reason for your relationship.... are you in it for the right reasons? you should know what his reasons are without having to ask.. especially if he is a nice talker.... he'll probably say something like " baby, you know i love you!" well, if he does, i suggest he prove it. do things without asking. stop criticizing you. guys are great, but you have to be on top of the situation.... Dasani water and Lemons!

So there was this quote...

there was this quote.... i cannot remember what it was... not for the life of me..... i just remember it was on someone's Facebook status and i loved it.... and that's all i can remember... i just remember it was so pertaining to where i was then- that it was almost considered inspirational. i want to pose you with a question: did you ever make a huge decision, know that your choice was the correct one, but a few months later think for a split second it was the wrong choice? Ehh yes I guess you could say that was me today. but always know that the choice was a good one... and dont go back on it! lol Butterfly Postits and Blackberries!

Sick Days are Bad Days

So I was hoping to feel better today from Friday when I first got my lovely sore throat from my roomate when she was on the plane back from Brazil.... but we all realize that hope was ditched, because for the past two nights I have gotten maybe 7 hours of sleep. My teeth hurt, and my eyes. I had to crack open the Robitussin this morning so I could function without having to blow my nose every 2 minutes. I noticed something this weekend: as much as I miss having a boyfriend, boy do I not miss the hassles of dating. The "i have a problem with what you do but im not going to say anything" or the " i will break up with you after i get my valentine's present". For now, I stay a student. A few close friends, homework parties, hair, nail, and makeup experimenting, and the common boy problems. (we can revert back to my favorite line- "Boys are stupid, throw rocks at them"- of course I don't live by this, it is just a healthy reminder that boys are only human and make mistakes ;) Of course what can you do? Tissues and Robitussin <3

An Average Day at School

So, for the most part, i start the day at 7:45. I guess I'm not your everyday college student, because I rarely get up 15 minutes before class. I like having time to check the news, my facebook, twitter, eat some Cheerios, and take a Zyrtec before I leave the dorm for the better part of the day... Then I have my nice little work study on campus to generate some minimum wage cash, my Psych and core classes, and of course the daily grind of finding something suitable but not too unhealthy to eat at the cafe.... Showering, and studying are the night time things. I'm not a nerd, but I do study- I guess I'm average smartness.... but if you ever need a sarcastic comment.... I am more than willing :) Yes, for now, i am living the "single ladies'" life.... go to the movies, mall, or dinner with my sisters or my besties.... This summer is the one I want to do something fun or interesting.... hopefully my internship at LifeWay Pregnancy center doesn't take up too much of my summer. lol